Regret, Worries and the World Economy

Its been a long, long time since I wrote anything. A lot has happened since then. Right now I'm in the throes of a lot of self-inflicted anguish and mental turmoil. Admittedly, the world economy has something to do with it but in reality I think it stems more from regret.

My five years in law school dulled my edginess. While being great in many ways, it lulled me into a smug frame of mind where I was under the comfortable impression of being guaranteed a well-paying, secure job at the very least. I allowed this false sense of security to overwhelm me. Now that I'm facing a situation where I am a month away from my recruitments, knowing very well that in all probability I will not be getting the job I want and now it feels like I've been thrown in the deep end of the pool and have forgotten how to swim...and it sure feels like I'm drowning.

But honestly, the picture is not as bad as I've painted it. Which is all-the-more reason for me to regret the way I've become.

I have to stop worrying...its the one thing that has always worked for me in the past. It also happens to be the one fact that I have refused to acknowledge in times of uncertainty.

Sigh...I guess I have to accept these times of uncertainty minus the worry baggage that comes with it..the thought of it makes me want to cringe. Sigh.