Right now the urgency for me to pee is immense and the bloody bathroom is occupied! Therefore, here I am trying desperately to distract myself from my state of immense discomfort..and I'm not sure its working too well.

I have completed my internship. I thought it was going great initially..but I think I may have missed a trick or two in my last week. Admittedly, overall I'm pretty pleased with what the impression I made. In ordinary circumstances, it would have been more than enough for me secure a job...but then again, the circumstances are far from the ordinary right now...so that leaves me pretty much hanging in the balance.

I'm so goddamn confused though. What the fuck am I to do? Where am I heading? Damn...here I was thinking that I had my head well above water...and now one internship has totally screwed my perceptions. I am really envious of the people who have got it figured out atleast to some extent...atleast of the fact that they have set themselves on course in a particular direction. Right now...I feel like a a paper boat drifting aimlessly in drain water...knowing that unless I figure things out soon...the only direction that I'll be heading in is DOWN.

Man..this was helping...till I felt a stab of urgency in my bladder...SHIT! If I have to take a positive from this...I guess my sphincter muscles are getting helluva lot of exercise. Sheesh...I'm such a loser.